Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away Part VIII – None The Wiser

And then she runs off, inexplicably feigning innocence while proclaiming it wasn’t going to work because of you…

None The Wiser ( previously known as ‘Well Thought Through’) was a track that didn’t exist until the rewriting of ‘Shifting Mirrors began. The original piece that sat in place of this piece was an odd instrumental with some choir-like vocals on top, but the original demo was so awful I scrapped the idea entirely and originally planned to have nothing there and just kick in the next part. But the song became quite disjointed after that, as now the ending didn’t seem to fit.

I was quite frustrated and ended up having to cool this by playing some guitar in the garden, where I ended up playing the tune on my 12-string. Absolutely fell in love with it, but originally planned to play this as a separate song at first. However, after having a few listens to the quick demo I made after I had gone over ‘The Big Fade Away’ this idea seemed to work better as it fitted the song a whole lot more than anticipated. The lyric delved into the frustrations of my then ex leaving me when I least expected it, along with the fact that she made it seem as if everything was my fault, whereas I have always been taught that where two lovers argue, two are to be blamed…
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None The Wiser
None The Wiser ( R.d.G)

No matter how many years
You keep playing on my fears
As all the things you had to say
Have never really gone away

Was it your way of saying sorry
That things were just not meant to be
Like a lifeboat on an endless sea
You swam to shore and forgot about me

(Chorus)
Could have listened
Could have stayed at bay
Could have talked things over
Could have walked away
But I am not to blame
For the things you did to me
You left me none the wiser
When you ran off to be free

Turn and run
But I have so much left to say
A smoking gun
as I saw you turn and run away
You were the one
or so I thought just yesterday

( Instrumental)

( Chorus)

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Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away Part VII – Falter

And finally, you break. You give in to the pain. You lose even though you have already lost her before. And everything starts to make sense when you least expect it…

The bittersweet moment when you realise the whole affair was going to collapse, is also one of release in a certain way. Doesn’t make it easier though. Falter ( previously known as ‘Sentimental’) was intended as an instrumental piece, but in the end I ended up writing the lyrics and cut half of the song off as it didn’t add anything to the structure. Right now, it’s a stripped bare emotional melody of a piano accompanied by acoustic guitar, before the song ventures back into the leitmotif of The Big Fade Away.

Falter
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Falter ( R.d.G)

I thought I knew heartbreak
Thought I knew the deal
But now I’m wide awake
in a moment so surreal

Shaped like a crashing wave
with the intention to alter
your sudden resignation
Something I cannot counter
You’ve made me fade, fall and falter…

Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away part V: Fall

Flashbacks aren’t something I enjoy a lot, as they tend to take me back to moments I would rather forget and move on from. Fall ( previously known under the working title of ‘The Drop’) is about how two souls met and connected. Albeit a short lyric ( and not to mention a short song), it fits the mood of the flashback perfectly, allowing a momentary glimpse into my personal life before fading out entirely into the next track.

Fall
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Fall ( R.d.G)

Sultry voice and pretty eyes
keep staring into darkened skies
Thrashing loud whilst now at large
he prays in silence for her to charge

Making moves, placing their piece
A nod, a wink, a slow release
There’s so much here for her to take
All the memories they’ll never shake

A mind on fire, his thoughts astray
Refusal won’t turn him away
Hands entwined, spirits uptight
there’ll be no sleep in here tonight

( Solo)

Flashing lights, the cracks resound
The foundations of life on unsolid ground

No solution will be found…

Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away Part III – Passing Strangers (Further Away)

After the agony comes the inevitable glance back over one’s shoulder, along with the realisation that this whole ordeal has just started…

Passing Strangers (Further Away) (previously known as ‘A Face I Used To Know’) is the only piece in this song that wasn’t heavily rewritten. In fact, only two sentences were slightly changed to fit the music better. Musically, it revolves around a piano piece with some gentle warmpad sounds in the background, before the whole band is brought in during the chorus. The ending is somewhat abrupt, where the piano is faded out over a heavy reverb before heading into the next piece.

Passing Strangers
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III: Passing Strangers ( Further Away) ( R.d.G)

Walking away
Shield is getting thin
Our eyes astray
Signalling the pain within

Now there’s nothing left to see
but the image of you walking right past me

( Chorus)
I thought we were so close
But now we’re just further away

Was this love our mirror confrontation
Where you saw me standing
But I just wasn’t the one
Doesn’t really matter
Now we’re passing strangers
Your touch at bay, your love denied
you make me run away and hide…

Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away Part II – Fade

This is where the heartache becomes heartburn, tearing you apart and leaving nothing in its wake standing…

Quite a harsh song. Whereas originally I was rather calm and exploring the sadness of the broken relationship, with the rewriting I found that I so much anger inside of me that letting it out was the only way. ‘Fade’ ( previously known as ‘Fading Sounds’) begins in a loud fashion, which is a bit of a departure in comparison to the other music on ‘Shifting Mirrors’. It’s the wake up call, sounding in more of the story. This is the exorcism of the agony…

Fade
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II: Fade ( R.d.G)

Along the lines of something forgotten
I view the scenes that make me cry
Recalling the words you said to me
as I try to figure out the why

Break my spine and throw me away
Deny your faults and live another day
Weep like a child of a wolf to the referee
Until a man to you I’ll never be

( Chorus)
Typed out across the screen
Words left to be seen
Impact imminent for a crash
Holding out against the backlash
These are things for which I’m not made
I’m slowly losing touch, I’m beginning to fade

Along the lines of something old
I see what remains of the past
As no matter how much I try
You made an effort to make it last

Steal my heart, put a knife in the back
Unleash your lies and dodge all the flack
Speak your words and ignore little me
Until I fade from sight to see

( Chorus)

Was I just some entertainment
A quiet fuck you made to crawl
Failing to make an argument
As I stand here against the wall

Tell me why you made me fall…

( Solo)

Along the lines of all I wrote
and all I dared not try
Now with all this honor bestowed on you
Even now, I still don’t know why…

Shifting Mirrors Teaser: The Big Fade Away Part I – Are You Sitting Comfortably

It’s never been about you, it’s always been about her. And now, she’s gone…

When I was 18 years old, I set myself an odd and, in hindsight, a bad challenge: to write an epic song of 20 minutes at least. Whereas normally songs like this feel forced and don’t work because too much is written into it, oddly enough it worked out alright for this one!

‘The Intricate Usage of Fading Sounds’ as this collection of songs was called at the time, used to be a fictional story where I continued the tale of the man I previously wrote about in ‘Marooned’. I felt his story wasn’t over yet and continued it to see where it would take me. At the time, however, I felt the ending part never really justified the rest of the song, so I put this one on ice and waited until I felt the right inspiration.

When I was rewriting the tracks for ‘Shifting Mirrors’, I noticed the now fictional story of a heartbroken man was actually non-fictional, given I was still reeling from never having said my goodbyes to a certain ex girlfriend of mine. You’d suspect a grown up man wouldn’t have need for such a dragging issue, let alone something that had happened several years prior to rewriting these tunes. But now, this ghost has been laid to rest and all that remains is the beauty of the song.

The first part of this track, ‘Are You Sitting Comfortably?’ ( originally known as ‘Comfort Zone’) was a poetic piece about having been replaced by my ex lover,  originally set to this pulsating synth with a drum computer steadily mapping out the song ahead. Its intro however is an acoustic guitar piece that finds itself repeated several times throughout the entire epic as a leitmotif, as if to function as a means of help to the narrator. The song ends abruptly to make way for the second part of ‘The Big Fade Away’. Just the way I like it 🙂

 

Are You Sitting Comfortably?
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I: Are You Sitting Comfortably ( R.d.G)

Seems you’ve made up your mind
Took your knife and stabbed my heart
You sit there and think what to say
Like you would from the start

You’ll say it’s not your fault
And then you’ll try to walk away
You know I won’t believe you
but you don’t care anyway

Tell me
Are you thinking of him?
Are you thinking of me?
Tell me, are you sitting comfortably?